Wednesday, November 10, 2010
CCL - JE Photo Taking
When JE passed me her message book - to pay for her photo taking. However, JE suddenly told me that:" Mummy, my photo not nice as I do not have big eyes like Ming Ming (her schoolmate).....can i have big eyes too!!! I was puzzled for a while and really do not know how to response!!
CCL - Feeling empty
Quite running down today as suddenly lost my direction.... These few days really a good time ( as HB was away for his diving) to review my life before and after married..life after having kids!!! The answer was I am getting lesser time for myself! Tired and sick when thinking of it but for sure I am enjoying their growing process. Sometime I really think to escape from home, few hour better than none....
I agreed we should have own space/activities then I will not feel empty and helpless when I am alone. Sometime I do think that it is not fair to me -- why always mummy is the only person to do the things, from giving birth, feeding, bathing, wake up in the night, diaper chaning..... My mind also tells me that I am not born to do that, hb should share the burden!! Because of this righteous thinking, I always push myself into a dark and negative corner. Why can't I just put down my pride and just doing my part and cover it since I could do that?
I use to claim that HB have no time for me, no time for the family.... However I really feel bad when I know that he is so overloaded in his work! My heart is bleeding not because because I am worry about him, is his health doing ok? The way I look at it is he is over doing and no time for anyone. Luckily to know that he still know how to pamper himself -- taking off few days for relaxing. However, everything will be falling back to the same after the return.....
I think my HB properly has no time in arranging family event. Ok, I will be the angel -- take up this mission. And guess, what I have done??? I have committed below and really happy to anounce it:
Family Trip @ Universal Studio Singapore in Dec 2010~~~Fun
Family Trip @ Langkawi in Feb 2011~~~ Nice beach
Couple Trip @ Bangkok in Mar 2011~~~ Tom Yam
I am counting down for it..............
I agreed we should have own space/activities then I will not feel empty and helpless when I am alone. Sometime I do think that it is not fair to me -- why always mummy is the only person to do the things, from giving birth, feeding, bathing, wake up in the night, diaper chaning..... My mind also tells me that I am not born to do that, hb should share the burden!! Because of this righteous thinking, I always push myself into a dark and negative corner. Why can't I just put down my pride and just doing my part and cover it since I could do that?
I use to claim that HB have no time for me, no time for the family.... However I really feel bad when I know that he is so overloaded in his work! My heart is bleeding not because because I am worry about him, is his health doing ok? The way I look at it is he is over doing and no time for anyone. Luckily to know that he still know how to pamper himself -- taking off few days for relaxing. However, everything will be falling back to the same after the return.....
I think my HB properly has no time in arranging family event. Ok, I will be the angel -- take up this mission. And guess, what I have done??? I have committed below and really happy to anounce it:
Family Trip @ Universal Studio Singapore in Dec 2010~~~Fun
Family Trip @ Langkawi in Feb 2011~~~ Nice beach
Couple Trip @ Bangkok in Mar 2011~~~ Tom Yam
I am counting down for it..............
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