CCL - Am I pregnant??

I have a strange feel. The first test was showing positive ---- can't believe and test another round again... Yeah, as below seen, both testers were showing +ve sign. Yeah, I should happy. However, I have a fear in my heart at that moment --- is this going to be successful one (as I have missed 2 in the same year).

Will go for a gynae check next week........ I am praying for it!!!

CCL - 2010 Christmas

The Xmas tree finally has been assmbled and for ready for displayed for 2010 Christmas!! It is standing at one corner of the living room. You could the see the blinking light from outside our house!

Age is cathing up and some more with 2 small kids, counting down has been removed from my Xmas program years ago! For this year christmas, we just have a small and simple family gathering, just grandma, daddy, mummy, cousin sister, cousin brother, JiaEnn, YewXuan and also Sophia kakak.

 My living room filled with xmas scents.....Cool

 Kids were helping us to decorate the tree... mission completed!! wow, so happy esp JE and XY

 The present only placed on 24th Dec. 

 Mummy, see! I now big boy, I am taller than my present!

After the presents were placed under the tree, JE has started so busy...why??? keep asking mummy which one is her present? What is inside? Can I open now? so so so on......


This year, my both angels can sing below song very well.... They keep saying during the Christmas week... Nice song darling!!
We wish you a merry xmas
we wish you a merry xmas
we wish you a merry xmas
and a happy new year!!!

CCL - 2010 Dong Zhi:Making Rice Ball Time!!

One day before the Dong Zhi, grandma already start to prepare the dough to make the rice ball for next day. Definately mummy do not know how to make it, do not even know what ingredient to buy. Mummy will always go for the fast and convinient way - buy ready make from departmental stall. Haiz... it really shows mummy really no interest to learn or even to know tranditional culture, feeling ashamed though.

JE is has different thinking, she is curious about anything, everything. She love to help in everything--good habit and hope she could keep it up! On 22 Dec morning, she refused to wake up ( she like to sleep).  When you told by mummy that grandma was making rice ball, she could wake up in a second and run to downstairs to join the crowd.

See how serious and fast learning she is:

Do not confuse, those nice balls on the plate were made by grandma. The one in her hand is being the first ball made by JE.

After done, JE place the ball on plate carefully...silly gal!!

po po, let me help you, i can do many balls and can do very fast too!! Can I have some dough?

Opps!! Milk time!!

Here is my show time! Now is YX join the rice ball making crowd. Professinal looks and style too!! hey, the rice ball should be in round shape, but why yours in oval shape?

YX was so proud of his rice ball, no one can touch them......

Darling, Dong Zhi means that both your are getting 1 year older. Mummy wish both of your grow well, loving and caring each other in anyway, everyway......

CCL - So tired!!!

Today's work has driven me crazy..a lot of thing really suddenly happen whereby I really has no idea how to react at that moment! How I do it? Just listen and follow the heart! Wow... It was almost 630pm! I am late to send JE for her ballet class again. Is time to pack and heading home now! I was praying hard it going to be a smooth and safe drive again.....

JE class will be scheduled on saturday as the traffic towards the class directionwas back. I am so happy as I can be sitting on sofa for my favorite tv show! A bit BUT -- YX always not standing at my side! The more I enjoying the show the more he sticky to me, the more he asking for anything . Of course I have to keep him accompanionship as I know he need my attention on him. However , the more I give, the more he ask, this round cry for sweet, another round cry for milk, play his DVD despite everyone is watching the tv show -- I was really angry and cannot control myself anymore!

 Strong in appearance but yet soft in heart!!

A song for you -- You Gotta Be by Des'ree

Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
Stand up and be counted
Don't be ashamed to cry
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Herald what your mother said
Readin' the books your father read
Try to solve the puzzles in your own sweet time
Some may have more cash than you
Others take a different view
My oh my heh, hey
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
Don't ask no questions, it goes on without you
Leaving you behind if you can't stand the pace
The world keeps on spinning
You can't stop it, if you try to
This time it's danger staring you in the face
Oh oh oh Remember
Listen as your day unfolds
Challenge what the future holds
Try and keep your head up to the sky
Lovers, they may cause you tears
Go ahead release your fears
My oh my heh, hey, hey
You gotta be
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day
You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold
You gotta be wiser, you gotta be hard
You gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger
You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm
You gotta stay together
All I know, all I know, love will save the day

Yes you are right, the stupid mummy has scolded and beaten him, the most I hated myself was I locked him in a dark room and I think I have frightened him, he was trembling with loud crying voice! Am I heartless?? No no... I am not, my heart is bleeding, my tears is dripping... But what should I do? I really cannot let myself to compromise in everything he is asking for. No blamming on anyone please. I have chosen to be a working mother, it is my fault not handling well in both...but how to draw a balance line??  I shall be more practising ---  Stop, Look & Vote....

"Mummy, don't be sad, we are loving you, please don't cry for nothing, I am here for you." I was puzzled but yet I was feeling happy and comfy as these being from my 4 year old daughter -- JE. It was totally touching me, I was speechless. It has reminded me to care about small thinking & feeling in whatever I do as they are hearing...they are watching... they are observing

I should know what I actually want to see -- to have my kids grow well and happy all time! YX is about to turning 3 years next year. He is so real, direct, vunerable and spontaneous in any place, any time..How can I expect to much from him? I just want them to be my side, hugging them... Darlings, mummy love you!!

Another sunny day, another big smile again --- my silly boy

CCL - Eat At Mamak Stall

What has made so special on this Sunday night?? haha.... they are 1,2,3,4,5,6 of us went to do groceries together. Yes yes, is was time to stock up!

To be continue....

We went to a nearest Mamak Stall, actually I used to eat there. But properly it was the first time for my beloved nephew and niece to experience this --- that also my purpose to take them along!! See below picture make me feel good if I really have 4 kids.  I always thinks 4 will be the ideal number, so that all seats will be taken up if I drive a 7 seaters car!! Am I dreaming?? Yes yes, I am.... LOL

 By having my niece and nephew at my place during this school holiday, JE and YX are overjoyed and play non-stop with them--- they are close to each other. They really enjoy it as the first person my kids to look for every morning is their cousin rather than daddy and mummy ( jealous?/ no I am not).

 Mummy n Daddy sharing 1 cup of lime juice while YX and JE asking for whole cup of Milo Ice for each person! You know why? because their cousins have it!! But I know they cannot finish it anyway....

 They are perfect match by having Maggie Mee Goreng go with Lime Juice...Love it!!

That is the right way.... Open your mouth big big.... JE now already no need mummy to feed her as she used to say:" Mummy, i now already a big girl so I could do things by myself". No joke, she really finished the Roti Kosong by herself---She love it......

 Yum Yum...

  JE was about to finish her Roti.....She keep eyeing on her Milo Ice....

YX love to eat, I love to see him... Very cute and some more with good sigh (even though not the right way). But know he wanted to tell me the Roti is good.... Look at his face, so so..... satisfied!!

  Another big bite... yum yum....

 Mummy, the Milo Ice nice too... can I have one more cup please??

CCL - Universal Studio Singapore

This is a 3 days 2 nights xmas trip to Singapore.

We reached Orchard Parade Hotel about 3pm. So happy as our room has been ungraded from superior to Deluxe and what??? The bed huge --- super king size bed--- love it!!! Overall the hotel is clean and comfortable but the service is poor and slow!!! All these will never spoilt our mood, after settled down, we already start hanging around Orchard area for hunting for food --- filled stomoach at Wendys --- yummy chicken burger :)

Without second delay, we was heading to the well know night safari on the day we arrived Singapore. Wow.... cannot imagine, it was crowded inside!! Not only that, it was so painful for me to spend $5 for 2 bottles of mineral water whereby I could get outside less than $1 per bottle... I think I was paying for a better quality water in the zoo!! I thought we should be earlier but the scene has proven me wrong----the Q to go into Night Safari already started when we were there! It was the first time I been to this place and experience was great but tired! I still felling a bit weird to see animal in the dark, but who cares, that why it being called night safari!!!

This picture was taken before the journey start. Nice shot and great thanks to the crew! We were enjoying chocolate while the tram ride.

Why only Mummy and JE?? Daddy is holing the camera whereas YW is sleeping soundly!!

We just love the show after the tram ride as it was fun and really worth viewing. Suppose we plan to have a walk around the zoo but 2 babies and  mummy were hungry and tiring -- no energy. So we have decided to leave the place and taking a cab down to Chinatown for our supper!! By then we reach hotel already about 11pm--Good nite and sweet dream Zzzzzzzz

Next day, the long waiting stop -- Universl Studio just in front of us. The most clever mummy has bought the ticket in advance as there was no more ticeket available at the ticket counter. The day was extremely hot and crowded. We have spent the whole day in there. The crazy thing was we spent at least 30mins in the restaurant --- just to Q for the food. No doubt it was the most cozy place for us to rest.

Below just some selected photos to publish in this blog. It took me long time to shortlisted them as there are really lot of nice photos!! :P

How can we miss the first spot upon arriving Universal Studio Singapore. It was crowded. Could you see 3 of us??? not the man that posing under the globe, please!!

It is lovely!!! So much different from the busy street out there!!

See... our little tour guide is planning the program!! Love to see their serious face :P

Can u see me by the way?

This is the first stop that we dropped by. I personally like this movie a lot. I was so happy as there was a live show when we were there!!..... I like to move it move it... You like to move it move......... Let move it......

1,2,3 Action....

Then here is our nice family photo!!

So....tired!!

What so special about this picture? It was captured by JE, not bad huh, thumb up for it!!

here is the limited 2010 xmas T-shirt for me and HB

CCL - JE Photo Taking

When JE passed me her message book - to pay for her photo taking. However, JE suddenly told me that:" Mummy, my photo not nice as I do not have big eyes like Ming Ming (her schoolmate).....can i have big eyes too!!! I was puzzled for a while and really do not know how to response!!

CCL - Feeling empty

Quite running down today as suddenly lost my direction.... These few days really a good time ( as HB was away for his diving) to review my life before and after married..life after having kids!!! The answer was I am getting lesser time for myself! Tired and sick when thinking of it but for sure I am enjoying their growing process. Sometime I really think to escape from home, few hour better than none....

I agreed we should have own space/activities then I will not feel empty and helpless when I am alone. Sometime I do think that it is not fair to me -- why always mummy is the only person to do the things, from giving birth, feeding, bathing, wake up in the night, diaper chaning..... My mind also tells me that I am not born to do that, hb should share the burden!! Because of this righteous thinking, I always push myself into a dark and negative corner. Why can't I just put down my pride and just doing my part and cover it since I could do that?

I use to claim that HB have no time for me, no time for the family.... However I really feel bad when I know that he is so overloaded in his work! My heart is bleeding not because because I am worry about him, is his health doing ok? The way I look at it is he is over doing and no time for anyone. Luckily to know that he still know how to pamper himself -- taking off few days for relaxing. However, everything will be falling back to the same after the return.....

I think my HB properly has no time in arranging family event. Ok, I will be the angel -- take up this mission.  And guess, what I have done??? I have committed below and really happy to anounce it:

Family Trip @ Universal Studio Singapore in Dec 2010~~~Fun
Family Trip @ Langkawi in Feb 2011~~~ Nice beach
Couple Trip @ Bangkok in Mar 2011~~~ Tom Yam

I am counting down for it..............

CCL - Genting Trip

Time: 15 & 16 Aug 2010

This round being the 4th round to Genting after JiaEnn and YewXuan come to this world. We have different fun and special memories each time.... We stayed in Hotel ThemePark - Family Room! The room is abit old but overall it is clean and spacious. There are 2 rooms attached. My 2 lovely kids were so excited when they stepped in the room, they on off tv, walk few round in the toilet, on off light, so so......... on......

We went down to the indoor themepark (the only place we go so far) about 230pm. Once they see car, horse game and so on, they almost lost control!! Of course, without second delay, I have to take them to the ticket counter for the playing pass. It has cost me RM28 /pax.

YW can sit on the car alone finally... At that moment, it really tells me that how fast the time flies and my little boy is getting braver and braver! Not only that, he even sit in for the bumper car! Luckily it was Monday and there were not a huge crowd here, JE and YX both were sitting for the bumper car at least 30mins non- stop! YX has picked up how to drive the bumper car finally. He drive steadily and enjoyed himself to much!

JE is so clever and a fast learner, she already know how to operate the car after the instructor thought her. The other thing I have noticed is, when each playing session has over, she for sure will go to her bro and make sure YX is safe and follow her. She is so caring and I really touch by her.

Hurray! We receive a dog balloon and a flower balloon from uncle crown!

Hb and myself are playing different role, we have to split afterall.  he was busy to counting token in Casino!!! He accompany his mother there for long hour, mother even settle dinner there. How powerful is the Casino is??  It was past 12am, it was HB Bday and he just on time for the birthday greetings! No no no... he came  back to take me to the Casino! I have ended up with donating RM200 to uncle Lim's fund....


Eating time!!
The easiser and most welcomed by popular must be fast food.... we have selected McDonald for our dinner!!

French Fries go with tomato souce yum yum

Is it?? Let me try.... indeed good taste going by 2

Now you see.... Now you don't!!

Night view at outdoor themepark

Morning View from Hotel Theme Park. YX yet to change, still wearing PJ.

We are on the top of the hill.....

Daddy: There is no cake nor any gift here. We wish you happy birthday and always in good health & luck!! We love you.