CCL - Past vs Future

I was so happy to see this picture, not sure when this being captured........ I am not sure how my mummy and daddy tied the knot but so happy to see them have going throught the process until today. No doubt that many love, excitment, tears, disappointment, happy, anger, ups and down have been factored in this marriage. But my thought is -- how to call a lifetime marriage if there is none of them??

At the opposite side will be the pictures for my 3rd baby - coming to see us in few weeks time.... Excitment , new hopes, happy, worries etc. are coming along the way, none of them is walking alone... I like to see the baby's hand in his little feast and his little feet + kicking and movement in my bump - really showing how strong a life is.... Mummy's wish on this little devil is very simple, I want you to come to this world in a safe and complete journey.



CCL - Our Baking Experience

It was the first, fun and memorable baking experience for me and JE.....


I use to dream of -- to prepare home baked cupcake or muffin for my kids! It just one of thing I was missing for the past until today! Am I realy motherly type? Er.... puzzled!! This dream has been kept in my heart for years until recently I have decided to get a baking recipe book from one of the book store. Wow, those cakes in the book look delicious but one question from my mind -- how should i start???

my style -- the more I think the more I will back out! In fact, i have kept the book untouched for about 2 weeks -- still finding excuses for myself such as busy, tired, so on.... However, my little JE will sometime throw me question - mummy, when we are going to bake for our own cupcakes?

Today I must fulfill this dream -- bringing out the book along and plan to sneak out to shop for baking ingredient while JE is attending for her english lessons. Opps! today is JE's speech day but we were late for it.... Once the teacher saw us, she quickly ask JE to prepare and proceeding to the stage for her speech -- the whole process took less than 30 minutes. I was so impressed that JE could performed so steadily and calm on the stage, she do not even need a rehersal!! oh gosh..... how powerful she is!!

Yeah, time to get back to the right rack - searching for baking ingredient. Of course JE also came along with me. I have been driving around the school area , still cannot locate any baking supplies shop. I was telling myself, properly today is not the good day to do baking -- another excuse again :P However, JE was so insisted to have baking today, yeah yeah, i must not to give up too -- be a good example, right!!  (My heart was questioning -- It's that real??)

"Give me five !!!!", we got to the place finally!! We were so happy to walk into the shop. Wow, the shop was so crowded, many ingredient on the shelves almost half gone!! Can't imagine today's people like baking a lot ya......Or they also share the same dream as I do??? (Think too much!!!!)    Suddendly one question from JE - Mummy, which direction should we go? What items we need to buy? I was stucked as I do not know how to start to shop for my ingredient -- first time i encouter more than 6 or 7 types baking flour, etc..... how to choose (was cracking my head).  At that moment, looking into JE's eye and she seem like telling me -- Mummy, should we start buying items now?? She really can't wait to go back to bake for her own cupcake. Yeah yeah, i cannot make her disappointted, acting confidently and steadily. I have picked those basic baking stuff (I think) and keeping my fingers crossed that everything is going well later.

Once reached home, we were ready for the baking -- follow instruction from the books by mixing all ingredient, in fact some just happen by guessing.... It finally done, our final product was out, not bad for the first trial -- so happy and satisfied. Now is the time for us to enjoy our home baked choclate chip mini cupcake..... We were so proud, hubby said nice too and hope he was telling the truth... hahaha :)

CCL - My 2011 Happy Mother's Day

I do not have a cake on this day -- but I still very happy and blessed because.....

I have.....

~~ my parents are healthy and had a nice talk with my mother on this date
Mother always give me power of strength in handling anger!! Frankly, I am not as good as her as I have to admit that I am a person with bad temper. I really impressed her limit of bearing for so many years --- she just follow the traditional thinking -- put the first priority on her husband and family by sacrified herself a lot!! I love you mother for you limitness giving and giving!!!

Ageing is really beyond my control, the more i grow the more i miss the time to be with you. My heart and sole always love you and be there for you... I am sorry if I really not every time be present for you which also the greatest guilt that i have.

Few days ago, I was crying while I am driving to work -- I miss you a lot.... My heart was bleeding when I recalling that the moment you went into the op room  for 3 operations!!! The waiting time was the longest and painful that I had ever experienced. However, the recovery period also was the best and thoughful experience that I had.... We are opened to ourself during the difficult period and thanks for allowing me to step into you to  feel how painful but yet the stronger that within you. Cloudy day has gone, come the sunny day..... and your supporting smile and reminders would be the valuable things that I am enjoying. A big kiss and big hug to you, my dearest mum --- Thank you for your unconditional care and love!!!

~~ my kids are doing great and adorable
Whenever I reach home, there sure a warm welcoming message from my 2 little darling - JiaEnn and YewXuan! Their laughter and innocent behaviour really make my days different and colourful. It is just about simple -- act like a child!!! Just enjoying -- singing songs, playing hide and seek, doing art and craft, simple cooking, etc etc.... I just happy to hear JE say -- "mummy, you are back, today I have a suprise for you!" -- it just a normal drawing paper with 3 words "I love You" but it is fulfilling with a little girl 's love.....

They still to young to understand how cruel or how realistic this world is, but they will care what they really want to care for -- their lovely parent and toys.  I always be treated differently --cannot be replaced!!! I am so proud to have this "status". They are learning new things everydays. They are very responsive and participative to every single event that come into their mind. Both of them learnt to make present for Mother's day, they were just holding their final product until it reachs my hand  They know there should be a cake and presents for me on this date -- -- so thoughful they are!!.

In conjunction with Mothers' Day, JE has taken part in an open coloring contest!! The registration was done 2 weeks befor the actual day. She just keeping telling the whole family and her school mates about this, not only that, we everyday were counting down for it -- it is a very special day for her!!! On the actual scene, I can see most of the parents keep reminding their kids such as "do not add any things in your drawings; you only have 2 hours time; do talk; and so on......... But me??? I never emphasize or restrict her regarding the rule of the contest, but just leave to her to explore by herself. Of course i did briefly run through with her beforehand. I was so happy as she could manage well on the actual day! You are right, she could not get any prizes on that day -- which I also explained to her why. She hapilly acceptted and move on.... Of course, by the end of the day, i share this with hb and we agreed to buy her a present - bicycle.

~~ Normal but Happy family
no different from others, I have my lovely hb and a happy family. We owe most of the basic things. It just like an giant imcomplete puzzle -- we are all working hand in hand to complete it. The final picture still too early to know now but I am very sure it going to be the most prefect and unique one!!!

Will be coming up with more new lovely pictures as we still waiting for one more member to say hello to us in this coming September.... As I said, no definate pictures how is the puzzle as it keep expanding and expanding....
PS: Dear, do not forget you still owe me one slide of marble cheese cake... LOL